“…but I’m sure you need to know. I never had the courage to tell you to your face. Maybe because I was afraid you would hate me. Maybe because I didn’t know how to start. Or maybe because I loved you in a strange, guilt-distorted way.
Lily, you are not just my sister. You are the daughter of my father… and of his brother. Our uncle, Mihai.”
I felt the air in the room evaporate. I got up from the couch, the letter slipped from my hands, and I began to tremble.
It continued:
“Your mother was very young. Mihai, our father’s brother, was an unstable but charming man. She worked on the family farm, he had just returned from Germany after a time spent there ‘working’. People talked, but dad overlooked it. He accepted the child as his own. But everyone in the family knew. Including me.
And that’s why… that’s why I couldn’t get close to you as I should have. I looked at you and saw a lifetime of silences, of shame hidden under the rug. But at the same time, I looked at you and saw a soul that didn’t deserve this burden. I’m sorry I didn’t know how to be your brother. That I was cold. Indifferent. You weren’t to blame.
You were the innocent child in a dirty story of old sins.”
The letter went on, but my hands were already numb. I went to the kitchen and poured a glass of water, but I didn’t drink. I rested my forehead against the cold cupboard and tried to gather my thoughts.
What was true in all of this? Dad… wasn’t dad? Uncle Mihai? My memories of him were rare but persistent. His deep voice, the slightly sarcastic laugh, the way he would ruffle my hair as if he knew something the others didn’t. I remembered how mom never wanted us to talk about him, how she avoided inviting him for Christmas or Easter, or even to weddings. She said he was “the wrong kind of people.”
I picked up the phone and dialed my mother’s number. Her tired, hoarse voice answered after a few seconds.
— Mom, just tell me one thing, I said directly. Is it true?
Silence.
— You read the letter, didn’t you?
— Yes.
— Then you know. And if you know, I can’t lie anymore. Yes, Lily. It’s true. The world wouldn’t have understood. You wouldn’t have understood either. I was a child. I was forced. And then I was made to be silent. The only person who knew and supported me was your father. Your real father. Eric.
That’s when the tears came. Eric… the same Eric who never told me “I love you,” but was there, silent, at every important moment. He didn’t talk to me much, but he was never absent. Because he knew. And he didn’t want to hurt me with the truth. He just wanted to protect me.
I hung up the phone and took the letter again. The last line was written in a different kind of ink, shaky, as if it had been written in a hurry, perhaps even on the last day:
“I loved you like a brother. Maybe I didn’t show it, but every silence was a shield. Now I can’t be by your side, but please… forgive me.”
I held the letter to my chest and sank down on the floor, crying for all the lost hugs, for all the unanswered questions, for a brother who carried a huge burden — in silence.
Since then, every year, on the day of his death, I go to Eric’s grave with a lit candle and a bouquet of sunflowers. Because he was my silent sun. And I, unknowingly, was his true sister. In spirit. In silence. In love.
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